The sky was bright blue as I walked across the golden grassy field to sit down by the river, where the cottonwoods grow tall and the northern flickers and magpies come to feast. But there was nothing pastoral about the wind. Gusts over 40 miles an hour buffeted me, causing me to lean forward to keep steady, and I found myself wondering why I hadn’t chosen a more sheltered location for this short walk and a sit.

Over the years, I've shared with you what I'm doing NOW to be well, to stay embodied, to find pleasure. It's a meandering path and changes as sure as the seasons. What worked yesterday doesn't work today and what feels delightful now wasn't even on the radar then. It seems to be the natural order of things. So here are some notes about what I've recently been doing for my own health and happiness…

For a couple of years now I’ve been much less outward-facing. Still, I’ve loved sharing and connecting and know - because you tell me so! - how useful it is to step into the contours of another’s life and let it nourish, confront and clarify for you your own life. In that spirit, I want to share some parts of me that don’t often get seen in this space or haven’t been seen in awhile. Said another way, beyond my embodiment/movement/coaching work, this is me, too.

Was this spontaneous healing supernatural? Did something happen that “shouldn’t” have? What about my recent healing from insomnia? Since I don’t really understand why going to Hawaii helped resolve the sleep issues, is it a supernatural healing? What about the time I resolved chronic abdominal pain by placing one finger at the source and another to a corresponding thread at my throat and wept and wept and wept? Is that a form of supernatural healing?

When you take action on intuitive downloads/desires/dreams/new information, you don’t really know what will happen. Will you get what you seek? Will there be struggle? Will it be easy? Will there be loss? Will it match what you imagine? Will you get what you came for? Which is to say: I didn’t know what would happen when we temporarily moved to Hawaii; I didn’t know if I would get what I came for.

I intended to write this long, chronological piece about why and how we came to the decision to put all of our stuff in storage here in New Mexico and head to Hawaii for the winter.

But the essence of it is this: my body spoke and I listened.

My freak-out meant that deciding whether or not to get the COVID vaccine wasn’t just a simple process of discernment, it was a process of self-healing, too. (Plus, seven practical steps you can take to more consciously make your own decision regarding the vaccine, or any other major decision for your body.)

Every woman I’ve encountered, when embarking seriously on her path of liberation, disrupts the “natural order” of things, thereby creating an environment in which defensiveness and rage and confusion and grief erupts in those around her. This is true whether she seeks the healing of her pelvic floor or a recovery from birthing trauma or the standing in her deepest beliefs about Life.

I’ve spent the bulk of the last two months resting. Or trying to rest. Or, maybe better put, being taken on a wild ride as I explore what has caused a year’s worth of insomnia.

Desperation set it. Fear. I dreaded nighttime. I never knew what was going to come. Nothing I did ever consistently helped. I was often in tears of desperation, afraid of sleep, afraid of the next day.

I’m in your head. I know you think you can’t trust your body and yourself.

I know that you, too, have grown up in a culture that has taught you to downplay and disregard your deep needs. If you are a mother, you can add the complicating fact that your children have legitimate needs that often interfere with your own. I know how tempting it is to be low-maintenance, low-needs, last in line. Having worked with hundreds of women, I can tell you that it doesn’t work. You’ll never be able to truly get better, feel safe or create the life you desire by being last in line.

Sneeze pee? Incontinence? Lack of orgasm? Prolapse? In this video, I offer powerful essential movements to help you address the problems you’re having with the functions in your pelvis.

Almost EVERYONE I work with has something going on in the pelvis. It can be the bigger injuries (like prolapse) or the really frustrating inconveniences (like sneeze pee) or the everyday disappointments (like not orgasming). Often there’s fear, anger, resentment and shame. At the very least, there’s a general disconnect. In this video, I walk you through five essential steps to reconnect with your pelvis.

This morning, I stood in front of this empty bathtub for a full 90 seconds trying to ignore the inner voice that said "Take a bath. Take a bath now." I didn't really want to take a bath because there are only so many (kid-free) hours in a day and I just wanted to get shit done.

A day in #unschooling during #covidtimes with an eight year old...

This year’s Mother’s Day was epic. Somewhat terrifyingly so. I thought it was going to be a regular Mother's Day hike. A few miles. A few lizards. Lunch by the Rio Grande. But on the way back, quite a ways in the lead of the rest of the family, I walked right up to a rattlesnake, head raised, rattles a'rattling, ready to strike. I was just several feet away. With a baby on my back

In my last therapy appointment, my somatic therapist asked if we could play around with reaching. She would reach toward me. I would reach toward her. As my arms started to extend, I felt panicky. Anxious. I didn’t want to be seen reaching.